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"Round in knowledge and square in dealings..."

Hanging out homeless with Lainga all day is the safest place to be— buttoning each others’ undershirts and sharing lipstick popcorn sodapoppin around. Here we can be the hipocribrats that we are because loud is real and laughing is crying is laughing. We're so hungry, and we never stop eating. We're antipatient we're suckers. If you're not a sQUARE you're not a sucker. W're sQUARES. We're gullible ‘cuuse we believe. But we know “he conspiracy we feel it in our spit and we wish to spit on The White Boy with no shame...and we call him W-H-I-T-E B-O-Y (and he calls us “baby") and we do together what we can't face apart. We try to stalk Him down and brat in His face when He suckers our sQUAREness. We are sQUARES for sure, but we are cIRCLES too. Don't forget it by mapping us two-dimensional or by setcing His cock standard of anti-sQUARENESS which makes us deny and shame that parc in us so dear. “Dare to be a Derk." We see and constantly aust struggle to see the connectedness of all His actions-—- of all action and inaction we must connect the dots so bad. This circle, our desire and necesity for total rev-o- lution totally, must acknowledge all want and hate as valid and utterly real- dstic. Still, we must love too, and somehow we do, somehow. As hets, we so often compromise and love (pour/give/invest energy into) those who hurt us and/or perpetuate what hurts us. The sQUARE is our awkwardness of trusting under the spell of this.annihilating system/society.

"Don't let life turn you into an asshole” but remembering that

“Violence in self-defense is called intelligence" — cIRCLES exist within sQUARES, and sQUARES exist within cIRCLES. We're struggling and scheming in vicious circles, we're dying to survive emotionally (and also physically). We must protect ourselves and each other from emotional death.

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dARE tO bE a sQUARE

‘cauee Cool von't spare anyone, ‘cause Cool kills. We will deal with you etraight up with love with hate with all the fucked up shit we've been taught and bomberded with. And ic will be awkward it will come out "wrong" {t wight sound ridiculous overreacting and irrational it will be vindictive “unfair end inarticulate. Cause sQUARE and cIRCLE don't cross each other out end this .# the REALITY of our lives. We are totally goofy one minute and ecreaming bli: murder the nexc... He calls us hipocrit He doesn't get it He expects an explanation articulation juscificacion rationalization maybe He expects us to kise his ase and suck His dick—-and believe me, we have and we do but maybe ve don't really want to. Maybe we want the Best, but we know how to get by, how to pass, how to survive. There's a price to pay and He wants us to know how lucky we are. Our security = compromise and we deal with these circumstances 24 hours a day, whether we're on the front line or noc. In our cIRCLE we recognize oppression and privilege and how it affects everything and everyone—— including ourselves and our friends and our scene. We draw it on our skin we paint it on the wall we cry it over the phone we eat it for dinner we slap it in faces. We battle systematic sleep techniques and refuse to kill the messenger who brings bad news. And we try so fuckin hard to see past our hate to sift through the fuck so we can love each other. Oh sQUARES and sIRCLES!, believe that we're all in a process and that we're trying and living at the same time.

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Dear Allison,

I know what +60 mean about that ali. boy club- haaee now. It's so zs “0 fucking lame. It's like I'll be hanging out with boys and all, then ea ’ 2 they'll just disappear and 1 won't see them until the next show or -

.°4 whatever. And MHERENEE I see them Ehey're all together. If I catch

'* one alone they aren't all that interesting, probably because they don't

\ have the security of thetr boyfriends. What ig up? It's so hard to have pals in Olympia! When I'm outside Olympia it seems I have people to hang out with, it's just in Olympia...

So what are we going to do about the all-boy club house? I think we ghould bomb it. Jealous? Well, I don't know, I just think they're dumb for being so exclusive. We aren't that way. We include the boys. We must be better than them. I think you're right, the boys are

y insecure, or no, you say ‘girl intimidation.’ Whatever. 1 feel left out. It sucks. Let's kick their ass. I can't wait til you and ‘Molly ee

tevisit Olympia. See you love, ; Dana Wy (.-! .

P.S. That boy in DC never wrote back. BOY oa

y r : s 2 Dear Molly and Allison }) . vs . ; i i i ‘i. q ea

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I've just finished reading your fanzine and I have to say that - you are all very strong and cool women! Never be afraid of being ux misunderstood by anybody, because if ‘they can't take the truth as. you girls tell it...well fuck theml

I've been to too many shows where the crowd was. such that ne wid my girlfriends were afraid to even get near the stage. I mean, even if you are able to control the space arouid you and defend yourself, usually some big stage diver (who is male and taller than youl) will boot you in the head! I know that people use the music to get out their anger and frustration, but what about our anger and frustration! You are so right, we have to reclaim the music on and off the stage.

I know that our world is a really twisted one, I mean, I just read yesterday that some dude wants to blow up the moon with a nuclear devicel His theory is that it would give the earth perfect weather by eliminating the lunar gravitational pull on our planet. Since the noon has always been a symbol for women in particular (like the goddess Diana) this is just another ‘fine’ example of what our vorld thinks of us. But voices like yours can't be stopped, and we in turn

will keep writing and working on our own revolution. Love,

Beth Waldron Lansdoune, PA

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Molly and Allison

1 worked 24 hours in the last two daya and grabbed Cirl Germs with my empty head and overworked body and read about my girl’ Maria

mon a couple of pages, Guy and Ian letters, and every good-damn page M® (in the bathtub). Really great ‘zinel All my friends et Food For ‘Thought will see it tonight, all my lezzie gal-pals will tune in,

all their housepates will pass it around and, like the dreamy-dreams

a extolled on pages | and 29, your stuff, our stuff, will happen.

Beautifully... Thanks Big-Time for Girl Germa. I'm all excited. Gravity, : Juliana

Hey it's me, your step-sister MARY--

WOWI!1!! I've just been reading your fanzine from cover to cover. what's goin on out there in the Northwest? I rave about you ‘cause I think it's great what you're doing. It's pure passion and ideas and anger and love and all the stuff that everyone should be feeling every day about everything around them. Sometimes it juet seems like there's not enough time but I know that's bullshit. Thanks so much for the FANZINE and keep me posted man. When I

m have wore time I'l] tell you ALL--Keep rockin and 1'1l do my part too.

Step Blood Love-- Mary

Molly and Allison,

This is Laura. We never found the bass player. The band is

‘screwed. We decided to kill it since it didn't work out. Depressive. |

I mean-- none of us really knew how to play music. We played by ear. None of us ever took a lesson in our lives. It has a homemade taste too. How did you start Girl Germs? How do you get it printed, mailed out, etc? Where do you get your info? I freaked out at the mailbox

wondering who the hell Molly and Allison are, but it finally hit me. Lates,

laura P.S. Things suck and hopefully in college 1'1] start a new wave band called 40 Flamboyant Godfast Days. Think it'll work? " Heck, 1f wy sister's friends didit, I can too!

Dearest Allison and Molly, Issue #1 {8 6000 cool. You can do no wrong. 1 love your

editoriale. I eepecially dig the Bikini Kill lyrics. Do they have a record or any music available to the public? Suggestion for

ia Girl Cerme #73: che strict abortion laws that recently have been passed

in some states and tow che gov't is slowly taking women's rights away-- what rights we heave lefel 1 know it has nothing to do with music but {it pertaims co the lives of girls/women everywhere. I'11 lend ay services amy way possible. Some of my female influences are: Bangles, Go-Co's, the Bumevays, STP, Lunachicks, Kim Gordon, L7, Babes in Toylang, Yo-Y¥c, and Madonna (she’s beautiful and headstrong).

As for Yerrt, Kerri ie Kerri. Kerri is wack. She'll be 18 in August. err! :s really beautiful. she is my Eriend and I love her.

* it guess Ciri Bazzy! ts o.k. Erin Smith thinks I should call my

band Leather Marte:, after sy street name, What do you think?

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Chapter II

you told me tol?

f an excerpt fram 1989 by julie

Clyarette pot unake beat wine whiskey armpit sweaty moldy milidlewy punk rock house, lie we ars again, same people, they're Always tha sams, ever since oh, 1944 or so, they come and go but basically satay the saing HWE's got a case of schmldt altogether plus A hatf rack of some other shit. lt doa't matter, it°!1 never he enough. WEI) be back at the stora before 9100 p.m,. we always get. thare aarty and watch copa on the Fox natwork and laugh about how wouldn't [t be Cunny 10 we were watching Jt and tha cops were coming Into the heause on the acreen and It was the house where we Werm., ha ha ha. i*)) bet I'm the only one wishing that would Nappen, tomaan tid probably yo to Jalil but at Jeant | wouldn't be yetting my head knocked tuoby HIM again. so tonight 1 don’t wanna drink and as usual HE says drink and go il do,. not wanting to be hit and humiliated tao front of than agabn, an} anyway if { drink eneugh Pt won't hart “Lib morning. but If 3} diink + won’t have my wits about mo Ml Louiqht's the nbatt ¢ make a cun For bt. ahh, who the fuck am to kidding j clon’ t have anyplace to go that HE wouldn‘t Chud= mea. fo later on abowl a half rack Ja my body later i'm sitting ar.ound talking to matt and he likes me and everyone knows ft, but we've only talking, 1! know better and besides | don’t like iidin anyway. ,

“BUTCH, PUT YOUK HAND) ON HIS DICKIE!" “fuck you, no way!" It’s a fachie reply i knew but bo alaua know bte’a not going to do me any qood and tobetter just deal with Jt. 4 quess tonight Is the night { am prostituted, matt says “hey, no don’t make her do that, she

‘aesn't want to, besides she’s your old lady and you'll kick my ags"

“NO FUCK YOU GOTH, DOO TR NOW AND KEEP I'v THERE! ' tht" { don’t neve and se flE does Lt for me, tow my hand Ja in a forced position on matt’s balf bard pants covered (thank god) dick. “SO BITCH IS CY WARDZ" Ll say nothing, i’m humitlated, Foam shrinking. HE tells everyone to come and took. 1 am nol really even there anymore but loam, omy hanel devwun'’t want ta be there and uelther-do { but both of us know better than toa qoet up aud cun, loam scared to do anything and matt known beter too, he's net enjoying It even Lhough he Tlkeg me, everyone knows how JL iy but they all humor HIM and laugh, they know Detlec too, is Ke

much Jater, off 2100 of 3:00 a.m, we're on our way home. HE's driving even Chough TP begged HIM to lat me dcive,you see | haven't been Griukiid Cot hours. e's stil) plugying away 1 mean as much as you can plug wheu you'va been swilling since 5:00 or so. we yet on to the highway and To can feel it coming. 1 can’t run, | can’t hide,

“FUCKING SLUT YOU FUCKING SLUT YOU PROBARLY WANT TO FUCK HIM YOU FUCKING SLUT BUTCH” and then It happens esasa the Elrst blow is administerald ta the left side of my head, “what was | supposed to do you told me to, you made me??7?" i don't know why | bothered WE didu'’t hoeac me.

“YOU FUCKING SLUT! YOU AR A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHITI" the Yast phrase ts one of HIS Cavocites in fact HE makes me say it about myself nometinas "bl am a worthless plece of shit" 1 belleve (t sometimes, most of the Cine. a8 If the words weren't enough I

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yet hit) smashed smacked gmnched the whole way home, (t's a long way hlome. $ wanna go home. where is home? home's supposed to be sale, ‘

Then, HWE passes out thank quod. ot carry WIM into’the house, my & {ive Coot three 114 pound body carries WUS dead welyht drunk alx foot three 145 pour! asshole nelf to bed. just Vike t Wid so many times, we're heme. | go home, but I’m not home. hame should be safe. {1 don’t have home.

You know, dt diedu‘t happen every day, but dt didn't have to. once should’ve been enough. | WASN'T DUMB! 1 TRIED TU LEAVE. A LOT! you fucking try to leave witti a gun at your head. { dare yon. ft came to the point where | didu’t tave to get shot, I OED. & INSTDE. | walked and talked amd breathed and shit but 1 was not § living anymore, now | am trying to be alive but i'm still afraid, i doen't even know (0 db%s worth dt. tl’ ve been away from HIM and alcohol for over & year. WE left ME, finally. but HE stil) exists, In reality and taomy mind and i'm tercifled. WE ls out of proportion and above the law, i's all f can do to wake up anid that's only one person one time in imy Life and there are more where that came from.s amt | wanna be - sedated,related,elated past lidyb,yreat,a date, ,elght plus sixteen,betler,yet a letter,wear a Sweater Light, thitve,drive,hbe aljvo and’ o.k.,3@8 a show,tie a bow, lel Jt qo away,panty rald,good yrade,and moct ly UNAFRAID.

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": tiveness to certain of society’s intolerable details, but will almost never prescribe methods of resistance which exceed the limits of legality—redress through electoral channels is the liberal’s panacea. .

In the heat of our pursuit for fundamental human rights, Black people have been continually cautioned to be patient. We are advised that as long as we remain faith- ful to the existing democratic order, the glorious moment will eventually arrive when we will come into our own as full-fledged human beings. (— ANGE! A Navis)

Throughout history, China had been invaded by outsiders. The

agrarian society never had the opportunity to fully recover fron the impact of the previous wars. The instability of the economy in

the 1940s forced many Chinese people to leave their homeland to

seek work in the nearby colonies.

Ma Choy, my mama, remembered that many of the peo- ple from Taishan, a small village near Guangzhou, jour- neyed to Hong Kong to escape hunger and starvation. The Taishan people migrated to Hong Kong for it was relatively close to their village. The people who stayed in Taishan were subject to work from dawn to dusk and rationed to one bowl of rice a day. Ouring these years, sany people died from starvation than killed in previous battles. The government confiscated all the agricultural goods produced by the people and exported them to raise capital to recon- struct the econony.

As China continued to be torn by internal upheaval, ay’ grandmother encouraged her daughter, MA Choy, to accept Tin’s proposal of marriage. Ma Choy left China in 1949, shortly before the Communists came to power, to marry Tin tik Nong* Rang: My parents wanted to have seven children because a family with nine members symbolized the "nine dragons" which meant strength and prosperity in the Chinese culture. We only wanted to stay in Hong Kong long enough to save enough money to escape the colonization under the British enpire. In 1977, my family and i left Hong Kong

and traveled all over the Pacific. We immigrated to the U.S. in

1980.

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It has been a continuous etrugglie to retain our cultural identity in oa society which denies non-anglos their identity.

Although the dominant group has emphasized "assimilation" into the

mainstream culture, our family has resisted the ideology of the melting pot. It is important to emphasize the physical differences between the Chinese and whites, thereby, "assimilation" has been difficult for non-anglos. Besides, we are very proud of our Chinese heritage and would like to maintain our cultural identity. My mama has played a very important role in preserving and

retaining our Chinese traditions. She would only allowed us to

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speak Taishan and Guangzhou language in her house. Her teachings were centered around collectivity rather than individuality. My mars mointained our Chinese culture through the vibrant folk tales; celebration of Chinese New Year and Moon Day: Budda religion; herbal medicine; food; and crafts which have been passed down from mother to daughter in China.

One of the family traditions in Ma Choy’s family has been to serve dong with all Chinese holidays. Dong is made from sweet rice, beans, sun-dried sausage, salt-cured egg, peanuts, and black pushrooms-~--then wrapped carefully with bamboo leaves and secured with strings. The women and children in the family would gathered sround the dining table to prepare dong and tell each other stories about their experiences in China.

The Taishan people were given few days notice 1 before Japan’s invasion of China. The peasants worked vigorously night and day to prepare for their hide-outs in the hills, The woren and children were given the responsibility to make dong. While the women prepare the rice, beans, cured eggs, etc., the children gsthered and washed the bamboo leaves. Later, the woren threw batches of dong into the boiling water

and cooked them. Ma Choy was allowed to eat one dong each day during the war.

My grendacther taught mama how to prepare dong in China.

Ma Choy was very close to her mama. The bonding of mother and daughter relationship made it very.difficuilt for either person to part from one another. When my grandmother urged Ma Choy to go to Hong Kong to marry Tin, the decision was made out of the love she had for Ma Choy. The political-economic turmoil during 1949 in China was unsafe for many Chinese people. Ma Choy also realized the instant iity of her homeland, thereby, followed her mama’s wishes.

My relationship with mama is also very close. She has made many sacrifices with her own life so that 1 can have a college education. My way of thanking and appreciating her has boen to excel in school. I think my good grades has made her and the

fe Chinese community very proud. I don’t get good grades for myself but for others who had sacrificed their personal goals to help se

get where { am today.

ONLY SHE SATD SHE LOVED ME SHE ONLY SAID SHE LOVED ME SHE SAID ONLY SHE LOVED ME

SHE SAID SHE ONLY LOVED ME . SHE SAID SHE LOVED ONLY ME SHE SAID SHE LOVED ME ONLY

Mama have never complained about discriminatory, practices in the work force or white world. Yet I reneabered i ied to run home from school in tears and to tell her about the abusiveness from the white children and teachers. She always knew and understood the problems { was having in school. Mama taught me never to say anything that would take attention away from the white children. She told me to keep a low eedtiie and an over-achiever, minority student would only alienate herself from her classmates. Mama’s

advice was for my own safety in the white world.

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mi However, looking back on my mother’s experience, i have

realized that she have suffered tremendously from discrimination.

The reason for this has to do with the fact that even though she

was educated in China, the only employment mama could attain was a dishwashing job. I remembered she used to work anywhere from 10 to 16 hours a day. She was denied economic mobility due to her English proficiency. As i get older, i understood the terrible

discriminatory practices she went through and the sacrifices she

wade for her family.

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When To was little my dad used to come into my room to read me stories

Moby my crit, sometimes. Other niqhts he would pick me up and put my :! mouth on his bard penis and 1 couldn't fit Jt a11 (nstde but I had to

A nommy would hear and she wouldn't understand, he said. It hurt the amost when he would try and put his penis inalde my infant vagina and

Bie understood. We told me he wished there was something he could do,

Pbhut he didn't know what since my diapere had to be changed., I was out

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and tuck me into hed every niqht. 1 remember nov; on some nights he

woutd amile in this ceatly strange way. and shut the door behind him.

Sometimes he would mankurhate on the edqe of my bed, or on the chair

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try for daddy and it hurt so much but I couldn't cry ‘cause if I did

he had to qag me then, because he knew I couldn't help but scream, and

of diapers muchearlier than most other kids, my mom told me. I was

Into my nightie anyway. So he would cub his penis around and then

shove shove shove shave, but always careful not to make me bleed on my sheets. he wad so careful, so logical about ft all. tle would always tell me to he grateful for what te was doting, because no other man would ever want me. AS TF 1 knew what all thia meant when I was fucking two

years old anyway,

So now I'm oldec and men do want me bvt the way they want can be so sick, and my insides are twisted. I never talk about what my dad did to me;

1 used to but my Friends acted so strange about {t all. It wasn't treated Tike anevent ino omy tite, it was treated Like a stiqma, a tragic handicap 1 can never overcome. It was_a biq deal to me, but T don't wand to be treated ag an object to be pltied. Sometimes my friends don't belfeve me and maybe (t's not true because 1 was so young and my dad sald t had a lot of nightmares but why would a baby dream about rape rape? What I want Js to be able to talk about this without feeling like I've stepped out of line. U'm tired o€ having theoretical, puilasophtleal Guversat lone about fexual assaujt but nog feeling comfortabie enough toa say "ht happened to me® ALL the burden of this experience ‘must be mine alone. So naw that you've. read this my exper-

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The Many Myths of Masturbation

When I started working on this story I got some pretty stranye reactions, My sister blushed. My boyfriend is still blushing. And the nice lady at the library, who helped me find some books on the subject, will never be the same again. in the course of my sometimes embarrassing research into masturbation I discovered three things: only diohard Dr. Ruth types seem able to look you in the eye when‘they say the word; virtually everybody dovs it (though virtually no one admits it); and there are more myths about masturbation than there are about Zeus.

By Karen Catchpole

Okay. I know you know that I know that you know what mastur- bation is (maybe you call it jerking off, a hand job, beating off etc.). What you probably don't know (and I didn't for ages) is the truth about it. I mean some people still believe that

if you masturbate, terrible things will happen to you-- real wrath of god stuff. And these are the ‘90s (that's the 1990s, not the 17908). So, once and for all, here's the truth about masturbation.

FIRST MYTH: Masturbation causes blindness/epilepsy/barrenness/ impotence/fainting fits/hairy palms/madness/schizophrenia/dry brains (I kid you not)/homosexuality/softness of the spine/ lethargy/dark circles under the eyes (and you thought it was lack of sleep)/laziness/loss of pubic hair/tumora/constipation/ even death.

If this were true, most of the people on the planet (see next myth) would be in serious, serious trouble. The idea that bad things happen to those who masturbate got started during the 18th century when some fool misinterpreted a story in the Bible about a guy named Onan who used the withdrawal method of cont- raception and was allegedly punished for it by god. Even though the withdrawal method is not masturbation and the story had nothing to do with masturbation (masturbation is never even mentioned in the Bible), ‘Onanism' became a commonly used teiin for it. Next thing you know, people started believing that any- one who masturbated would be punished by god, and that accounts for a lot of the hysterical myths surrounding the subject.

Soon doctors (yes, doctors) were performing horrifying ‘cures' like the complete removal of the clitoris (that's the round, bulby, sensitive part of the vagina right at the front near the pubic hair) and blistering of the thighs and genitals with hot tongs. One particularly gory story goes like this: In 1894 a seven year old girl from Ohio was caught masturbating by her parents. They took her to a hospital where doctors buried

her clitoris inside her labia (the flap of skin that forms the outer lip of the vagina) with four sterling silver stitches. The girl--following her natural sexual instincts--just pulled the stitches out and started masturbating again. So, mustering all their up-to-the-minute, authoritative “medical wisdom," . the doctors cut her entire clitoris out. (I guess they didn't malpractice back then.) The scary thing is, these ‘cures’ were still being recommended in medical journals in America and 12 — Europe as late as 1940.

SECOND MYTH: Hastucbatton le ra

The next time you've got nothing hetter to do--Iike in between copies of

Gicl Cerms--look around. Most of the people you see-~including your Spanish teacher, your brother'a girlfriend, your boss at work--masturbate. Research (yes, they pay people to ask questions about this stuff) shows that 95

percent of males and at least 70 percent of females manturbate and 90 percent of the overall population have done it at least once by the time they're 21. Women generally masturbate more after the age of 30-- the fact that the

female sex drive peaks between age 25 and 35 probably has sowething to do

with thir. But how frequently you do it depends on how strong your personal sex drive is and how comfortable you are with the idea of easturbating.

Some girls told me they do it almost ae often as they brush their teeth (that's three timea a day for thone of you who haven't been to the dentist lately). | “| menturbate every day before and after achool,” says one I5-year-old. “i's addicted.” On the other hand, some girls never masturbate. “Every tine I

try to manturbate i'm dry and unatimulated,” 13-year-old Erin said. "1 don't Tike d¢.° Either way you're okay becaune there's no rule that says hov much or how little you ahould manturbote-- or whether you should do it at all. Junt make your own deciafon based on what you think fm right.

THIRD MYTH: Masturbation fea bad for you.

Hanturhation tm only bad for you If you feel ao gudlty about it that you

develop an unhealthy attitude toward it. In reality, ansturbation can be

one of the bent waye of getting to know youre body. A lot of women who have trouble having an organm (the physical and mental sensation you feel when you reach @ nexual climax) with a partner ducing intercourse are actually en- couraged {0 maaturbate by doctore and paychologinte so they can teach themselves how to have one. Doctors (they've come a long way in the last 200 yeare or so) alad recommend masturbation to relieve menatcual cramps and an a way to get

rid of sexual tension without having actual intercourse which can result in getting pregnant or perpetuating a sexually transmitted disesae.

FOURTH MYTH: If you masturbate you're not a virgin.

Siateen-year-old Telits wrote us a letter seying: “I want to masturbate, but I'm worrfled 1 won't be a virgin anymore,” Take it from we Telita (and all the rest of you who are worried about this): ‘Masturbation is not the same thing as intercourse. So even if you ineert fingere or dildos (the fake plastic penisea advertised in the back of those eagazines under your bla brother's mattress) or vibrators (battery operated dildos) or what- ever (wit) ‘= reason girls) you're still a virgin. Sometimes meeturbating atretches the hymen (the thin membrane that covera the entrance to the cervix), but it's probably already etretched or even broken from aports (like horee back riding or gymnastica or circua contortioniam) or just fros using tampons. And even if you break the hymen, that doesn't mean you've lost your virginity. — : . “25

FIFTH MYTH: You don't have a real orgasa when you masturbate.

Wrong. Research showe that vomen reach orgasm sore often Chrough masturbetion than through intercourse end many say those orgasms are much sore intense.

But no matter how great it feels, masturbation probably won't make you want

to give up sex with another person. It will juat help ydu learn about your body-- what feels good and what doesn't (you know, all thet stuff your health teacher skips over).

SIXTH MYTH: You can hurt yourself masturbating.

“I"ve been masturbating for two years,” writes another worried reader. “Am 1 hurting myself?" The truth ie, you'd have to be forcing sharp or very big objects into your vagina before you'd do any damage. Most common forms of masturbation-- like touching and rubbing the clitoris and/or inserting fingere, vibrators or dildos-- are very ynlikely to cause any kind of damage no matter how often or vigorously you do it.

SEVENTH MYTII!: There is only one way to masturbate.

There are as many ways to masturbate as there are people who do it. (In other words, 8 lot). Most girlea (according to our fearlese researchers) masturbate by rubbing the clitoris with their fingers or s pillow, by applying pressure to it with @ stream of water, or by squeezing their thighs together. Three- fourthe of women who masturbate.prefer to Ife on their backs while cubbing the clitoria with their hands. The rest prefer to do it while lying on their stomachs, and 20 percent insert fingers, vibrators or dildos into the vagina. But you won't find any summer school course in masturbation technique. It'e just one of those things that comes naturally. Fantasies are wavally part of wasturbation too, in fact some women can have an orgaam just by having a fantasy without touching themselves at all. Fantasies can be about anything or anybody that may turn you on. A girl I talked to liked to fantasize about eex with an older man; another imagined being with a teacher. Some girla think sbout having eex with a girlfriend. These fantasies don't necesaarily represent your character (I don’t care what Freud would eay). So don't freak out 1f you fantasize about getting raped* or about having sex with your brother-- it doesn't mean you really want that to happen.

I'd bet money that none of you will be rushing off to school to tell all your friends about whether or not you manturbate. And that's fine. I'am not planning any public speaking tours on the subject efther. But et least you know enough not to fear it, or feel guilty about ft and not to do it {f you don't want to. 7 But 1f you feel like doing fc (or if you already are), now you've got the truth. Hiseaion accomplished.

* Editor's Note: “Fantasizing about getting raped" doesn't equal rape in that

tape fe about pover/control over someone (usually # woman), and when a pereon

je fantasizing, they are in control of the aftuation-~ she te in control of

the fantasy. Obviously, this type of fantasizing says a lot about our culture/

soctety, and you may not agree with the point just wade eo we welcome any - [4

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Gre thing that | am finding lot of comfort and inspiration from is all these gris, Stales-wide, that nave surfaced. These women are young and down with the kids, down with the revolution. But | find their version of the revolution sromsses something to me that hither to nas been ignored. Slatantiy, these girls are demanding gender conciousness fromboth men and women, These women are saying to me (and | am saying to you): 1 AM NOT going to take shit fr. “the man” where ever “ne” manifests “himself,” either in the outside worsd (the square woria) or inmy friends | think of as good boys or cool doys or good girls or cco! girls. |

am saying | AM HOT going to scratcn yr. eyes out in the girls room when the boys

aren't around so tnat | won't be calied a oitch. | AM NOT going to judge you because the jersy sweet ooy i used to date, dates you mow. Or because you unwitting.y fucked nim because maybe ne didn't teil you the whole truth. i AM NOT going to talk about you behind yr. back because | don't know you. | AM NOT 4 fucking cat... , AM NOT going to caii you the blonde groupie of yr. friends’ band.

| AM saying (and they are saying) that | amgoing torespect you from the start and nake the assumption that you havea brain anda heart and that because yr. a giri,

you know adout the fight- OUR FiGHT with "the man.” | amnot a square and | don't

tnink line a square and | don't bite like # square becuase | am out for the rightesous fignt. i wiss Fight the good fight and not tug at yr. fur. And i Fight card to not ce a jeaious girl or amalicious giri. And. ear: to maxe this a pushy point... revoiutionary girl soul force... | said FORCE, mother fucker, i want to FORCE the issue. This injustice has been unsung too tong. ‘t's important that this revoweion, ths addressing of the issue is done because the rhetoric can shy one away from it’s necessity. It's important to not de afraid when the rnetor ic can seem alienating and hostile. Sut | amnot hostiie because | don't biame anyone, in particuiar, And i won't be nostile t because i have to live and produce in this world: @ worsd which i didn't create bet an trying to find a place in. i don’t think !'m irrate, But | am angry and | am aware, | don’t feel inclined to point the finger but | amnot afraid to give the Finger when need be and if that's alienating than that’s realiy tuff shit because somethings need to be done. And it is my intention to put this issue rignt up in yr..face, Set, so we'll be face ‘a face, SEE, with the fact, SEE, that sometimes, we stand against one another wronjiy... And by seeing and saying: | NON'T-- when it may seem trite or hostise or oovious or self conscious, it creates the possibility of a time when we can ieare these things be. But for now i take this ardent stand, to stand by my woman: to ce for ner and then mayoe sne can be for me. And | hear these girs, girls | jor t anom, girls | have never met, make these same promises and these same threats. They speak to me and! speak to you and | know our time has come... revolutionary girl soul force... wow.

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A OWN CALLED KALL FLOWER A Continuing Saga

Here's a rundewn of what happened in the second episode:

Milton lets on that he’s interested in Vegan and they make goo-goo eyes over a wheatgrass Juice.

Bill tries to vet his cousin Daffodil to invest in Stock for the Moola Boobyard, a farm growing organic breasts for transplants. i

Phyllis shows Malcom the paper route and discovers he has a crush on Daffodil and that she may be falling for him herself

BOR BERRE ORAL ESAS ELE LL SSS ASS ESET TSS RS SRS ES SESE TSS FESS 22S of 8

The guitar feedback from the last note of the set rang in everyone's ears as they exited through the door to get some air and dry their perspiration. Vegan had peeled her sweater earlier and now carried it in the crook of her elbow expecting to be chilled once she made it outside. She had Just seen Phyllis go through the door and was excited to hear her band Linoleum play the next set. Vegan was dreaming about a tall, cool V8 when she felt something smooth, hot and wet press against her arm in the crowd.’

She turned her head and came face-to-face with a vibrant, sweaty, naked torso. The bicep was closest to her. IL was slightly flexed and she visually traced the muscle up to the swell of the shoulder, then farther, up to the prominent collar bone that glistened with salty moisture. Vegan felt. her mouth water and a throbbing sensation between her legs As if in a trance, she craned her neck to get a better Jook at the chest. It. was satiny smooth with well-developed pectoral muscles; below them the hollow of the sternum and faint indendation of ribs were complemented by a tlat stomach. As the scent of male torso waffed past her nose, Vegan felt so drawn she nearly collapsed. Taking advantage of a shift in the crowd the torso moved directly in front of her and exposed its back. It wasn’t a back, but a piece of art. Wide shoulders accented by perfect shoulder blades, wrapped in two thick slabs of muscle tapering down toa trim waist. She made it to the door and the cool air cleared her head a little.

‘Hey Vegan, what's up?” asked Phyllis.

“T'm on the brink of an orgasm. Check out that torso, can you believe it actually helongs to a man? It belongs on my wall, or maybe mounted above my bed.

“It's ok, I guess. That last band rocked. Have you

? aid he was coming-— aie Bed ae would you mind if we stood over there 80 I could get an unobstructed view of the torso, interupted

Vegan. aA ; “Sure. I thought you had a thing for Milton, what's

with all this torso lust?”

‘T don't know, it’s a lust-inspiring torso. I find objectifying men strangely empowering. Milton Ss different. I mean. | like his body, but he’s 3 complete individual. lle’s here somewhere, by the pet I convinced him to come Ss show, are you nervous!

i een ooh sure a voice sounds all that good, I've had: this eoeld, and. { passed.a dead bird on the way to the club

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Vegan! Hill waltzed over. “Nice nipples, ever hear of a bra?” he said smirking. ‘Yeah, L inst burned it.” There was no wav a lame ass

like Bill was going to make her feel self-conscious about wearing a halter top, thought Vegan, Without a second glance Hill left to talk to bis brother Milton

‘ey Bild, TP thought you were too smooth for shows,” sald Midton

‘Sweating bike a pig with hyper freaks isn’t my idea of a good time. I'm cruising on three legs for buxom blond Leenage girls. if you know what [ mean. I've been putting up these flyers for the Moola BRoobyard, there's an ds, informational meeting next weel and I'm hoping to attract

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some potential investors. You want to hand some flyers out for ol’ brother Bill?”

“No”

Hild turned to go and said, “Whatever. See ya.”

Milton searched the crowd and caught sight of Vegan. He moved towards her in a way he hoped looked cool and indifferent. She looked strangely flushed and seemed to be hanging on to Phyllis for- support “Vegan. Hi. Are you all right?” “Milton, yeah, I'm fine. Just catching my breath. I! thought. I'd go get a V8, want to come?” Vegan gave him a big smile, hoping she wouldn't. have to deal with any kind of Jealousy scene. Milton really was a dreambost, she liked his boyish looks. . “Ok, but F' lt probably get a Jolt. 1 had a vegetable serving yesterday. Hey Phyllis, see you in a couple of ‘minutes. Vegan and Milton strolled off into the darkness and Phyllis saw their arms entwine, then she absentmindedly glanced around for Malcom. \& ae

‘ So, are we im tune or what?” asked Phyllis. The Linoleums were onstage and she hated delays; standing around under the lights, doing nothing, waiting for the band to get their shit. together. “How du I turn this amp.up?” she asked, not really expecting anyone to answer.

Phyllis talked into the mike, “Are we ready? Ok. Ah- we're Linoleum, thanks for coming out.” She glanced at the bass player who started strumming a deep, harsh rhythm sounding Like death itself. The drummer started thumping and a cymbal shimmered in time with the bass. Phyllis slowly gyrated, holding the mike with both hands, her head slightly bowed to avoid the bright lights. Her mouth

opened:

This, is warning For the pimps to move on ‘canse the new woman is toon strong She's had enough of cape and misery It's time to kill the patriarchy,” Phyllis could feel the sweat beading up around her eyebrows.

Slavery started with Eve so

learn a lessen from goddess Kali

kato their blood or drown in the cum of an all male kingdom

Kill the patriarchy! ~ The band Jald into the beat and the crowd began screaming and writhing. The center of the club was taken over by the mosh crew. Phyllis lost herself pounding out lyrics-

‘Free your mind from sexist oppression

and set yourself for the girl revolution

Don't diss me cause we won't. be thwarted

A set. back ‘cause our sister it's plain to see ‘---1s lost in a male supremacy

You won't. see me get. played

]'ve got an Uzi to make him spade

He kills for sport. or lust or greed IT kill to tnek the patriarchy

Dead men don't rape you see

We spill yeur guts to be tree

Kill the mother-fuckin’ patriarchy!”

Phyllis was hot and everyone knew its: Malcom stood at the back of the club watching her. Then he glanced over at

baftodil who had just walked in the door. He wasn't sure what to think. , ‘s

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¢ October 7, 1992

Dear Germ Girls, S by ino a: laain aie

seul an I just saw an article ae you in the Indianapolis paper think it’s so great - you‘re right ! don't talk to the press ' Don't let them make you cute , don't let them put a “girl phrase guide” in the entertainment section of the Sunday paper, don't let them call you "Wayne and Garth's girlfriends” } a feel so generation gapped - all the girls whose ages were mentioned “are 17 or 19. and when I was 19 I'was engaged . I‘m 23 now - I just found out that a relative of a friend of mine, who's my age, graduated the same year I did, was in the same advanced-study programs (they call them magnets) in the same school-system, had the’ almost’ the same GPA and a 20-point lower SAT total, is trying to make up his mind which of two all- expense paid scholarships he‘s going to accept . Meanwhile I'm going to the state university that has to take everyone . Must be nice to have a dick . Makes you more academically qualified, don't you know 5 I don't know what it‘s like out in Washington, but I was one of the last of my friends to get married . A girl I know just got mar- ried last month - stre‘s obly eighteen and they've been together less than a,year,. and he won't open a joint checking account with her because he “knows how women are™ and wants to spend “his" money the way he wants (even though she has a job) . That‘s Indiana-for you .- I married a man that I thought was the most feminist, principled guy I ever met, and ... well ... the nicest thing he said to me lately was calling me his “pet woman” . He's sulking all the time, acting like it's my job to take care of him, telling me how sweet I am (his code for "I love you when you'‘re saintly and patient") and that I‘m such a good woman not to leave him (but presumably not under any other circumstances) The “women's” “community” out here is as white as a Klansman's dick . One local leader summed it up when she told my that any work I do for queer rights “doesn't count” because I‘m bisexual and so by definition I-can‘t be part of their community (and I can't be part of their community because everyone knows bisexuals don‘t work toward queer rights, anyway there aren‘t any so how can we,) and saying that “If it was my issue I suppose I'd care .“ (I wonder if racism:is her issuc . I think I know .) Yes. everyone knows that the only things worth fighting for are the ones that help you get ahead, and you can only get ahead relative to other people - so if they try to make an alliance with you, don‘t let them ! Remember - anything they get is something you're not getting . 1 ‘could go on and on... about how I was a sStraight-A student (the only way I've ever been straight) and held down a full-time job in high school, but my parents said I wasn't responsible enough to learn to drive ... but my little brother had a D average, flunked + every English class he took and graduated a semester late, but got his license and a car a couple of months after he turned sixteen (it would have been right away, but he wrecked Mom‘s car on the way to his first driving test and flunked the second one .) About all the teachers who told me to spend less time studying and more time flirting . About how Y used to throw up five times a day because I figured if I couldn‘t be straight I'd have to be perfect at every- thing else . Abou: the fast food jobs where they only train girls to run the registers, then train the guys on all the jobs and make them Managers . The managers get paid a third more than you do, even though you can do everything better and faster, but they won't give you the official recognition you need for the promotion because “you're so good on the registers, that's where we need you" - About

the guitar teacher who told me, “You know. you're pretty good . You . play better, than some guys .* T'm s@nding this letter to a couple of zines - I hate to send

form letters but the information in this article is so scanty that ! can't really tell much about any one of them, just that I like the attitude . *

“Burn down the walls that say you can’t ?” Yeah, and break down

the walls that keep us apart . 2

Chapter IV THE GREAT LRIBULA TION

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Allison and 1 had a conversation with Rebecca Odes of the band LOVE CHILD

on naturday July 27th, right before we played a show in New York. We had seen Love Child play the week before in d.c., and we were going to do the interview then, but thinga like this are really tard to get organized. So when ve got to New York, we called her and we mg fdefore the show. Since there wan no place to do the interview at the club, we went out on the street to talk about stuff. [t was cool to Ifaten to the tape of our converaation ‘cur there's all this new york nolae in the backround. Doge barking, car radion blacing, horas honking, and ahithead harranaing. Rebecca in an artint whe went to college at Vasaar, and Inst semester she vas in a graduate painting program In chicago. love child has been a band for like four yearn, and they are completely great. They have thie eong called “know it's alright" chat Allen aings thatn so awesome, 1€ goes: ‘what you gonna say when {'m out of your way...and { blaw you away, and {1 blow you away... it's alright...it's aicight.,.' there are also these incredible screame. Thin song, along with the 6 incredible ones that Rebecco singa are on their-new record “OKAY?”

on Nomestead. 1 would advise you to check it out. Okay? ES gg: Wilen we interview girls in bands we like to ask them questions about thelr experience in muaic, but also, since you're in a band with boys,

maybe you could talk about that too,

Rebecca: Well, I don't know. I mean, theres definately things, ideas that girls have about music that are different from boys. f mean I haven't played with that many girls so I don't really know, but I feel Like since boys have been playing music for thelr whole lives; I mean Allen has been playing : guitar since he was 10, and he thinka he Knows every thing. I mean I never : tried and that's why I didn't play music before, becavse when I would try to practice something, {t-was just much to much work, end-1 would just rather draw or something that wouldn't require to much practice for me. And 1 just wean't in to the monotony of learning scales or even hurting ay fingers to learn chords when I started. I tried to play guitar when I wae 12, but it was too wsuch trouble. Sometimes Allen gete frustrated at how I can just not re- renber how the song went. We hardly ever practice, we try to practice before every show {f it's been more that two weeks since the. last show. We're com- pletely lax, and then he gets really mad if I forget how a song went especially if T wrote te. We thinks it should be ingrained on my ekull.since I wrote it.

.t june don't think that girls are encouraged to pursue it when they're younger, ao I think it's a totally different way of looktag at it when you're older and you pick it up. You're more conscioue of the idea that you don't need to learn to play to do it. So you don't really go through inteneive training or lessons. I sean, 1 never had lessons or anything; someone taught me how to play “wild thing” and that was it and then I taught myself listening to records and the boys in ay band abusing me in practice to learn our songe so... I had some problems with the guy who use to be in our band, and I guess isn't really anywore (Will), ‘cuz he's constantly moving to different cities. He used to sort of try to control we in weird ways, like what I wore and shit. The first show we played they told me I couldn't wear whet 1 was wesring ‘cur I was wearing a dress & they thought 4t was too fancy and "ve're not a fancy band, ve're a Punk rock band”. I mean not that I should put sugar water in ay hair or snything, but they didn*t want me to vear thts cocktail dress. It wae really irritating, I don't know what hie problem was, we had a lot of difficulties in genersl. Hey, we're gonne ne playing with Shonen Knife at CBCB’e in august.

ga: NO WAY!

R: yesh, august 16. it's the best show we've ever been on. Shonen Kaife te wy woa'a favourite band. She's gonna be totally dying. :

ge: Do you heave any ideas on how womens issues like rape etc. enter in to the arena of ousic, experiences, whatever.

R: well, I guens wy most specific experience!:haa been with ay parente and their ceection to things like the way I drese, and the way I conduct myeelf, in that they think {t's gonna somehow fuck me up later in life. ...the firet thing thatever happened with this wae when we played at CRGB‘s like 3 years ago and I waawearing a ahoct eini-skirt and ay dad hed come to pick up ay steter ‘cuz she hed junt seen us play, and my dad atarted yelling et we while I waa standing outside of CBCB’s that wy'skirt was too short, and there were like 15 people standing around and he's yelling at me; and he's not even that dictatorial or anything, I guess he wae Just worrled about it. This was actually when Tobi, and Billy, And Calvin were ataying at wey perents house in N.J. ‘ouz we had juet played with the Go Teas, and ay dad called we into hie office to talk about it. He eaid:" I just want to let you know that it’s not that I don’t trust you-it's just that I think you are too trusting. You know you juat can't walk sround like chat", And 1 got so angry that he was just buying into the whole ‘asking for it' thing. That's when I wrote this song that's now called “asking for it", thats sort of about being harrased.

1 eort of tried to tell hia that, although I'm not quite sure it’s true, but that when you're on stage, its sort of ea safe place to be. where youf-.:

not at risk in such a real way. It's hard ‘cuz there sre times when I feel ro hyaterical about the idea of being reped that I just don't want to leave the house. But I feel like sometines you just have to ignore your hysteria and go out or you wont be able to function. It's just not cool. It's

fucked up.

BB: since you guys don't practice that auch, how much of the songwriting do you do. Does Allen write what he sings and you write what you sing?

R: Well, mostly thats what's been happening recently. In the beginning I Hardly even knew how to play basse, so I wasn't big in the song writing

thing. - Then, I started writing songs. At firet I sang two songe that

Will wrote, and then I started writing some songs and singing thea, and

on the album that just came out I wrote like 4 eonge I think, and chen. there's the two songs that Will wrote that I sing. And then I guess recently since Will hasn't really been in the band Allen and I have written a lot of songe together, which fa pretty good I: guess.

*0h yeah it's good. You can write Rebecca and LOve Child c/o Homestead Records, P.O. Box 800, Rockville Center, NY 11571-0800. Their lp ten probably $7 if you can’t find it at your local record shop.*

LOVE CHILD ©

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This is my TOP 10. extended dance remix. produced: by revolution (summer) girl style now.

1. New York Drummer Girl Scene

I read a Jot last spring a bout this east coast Love Rock scene that was emerging, rkepticiam aside, I was intrigued by the fact that al} the bands forced to live under the love rock shadow had girl drummers. Two months later I have the fortune to see moat of thes@bands and meet these girls and they are so fucking rad. The bands and girls I'm talking about specifically are Rachel from SLEEPYHEAD, Torry from FLYING SAUCER, and Rachel from KICKING GIANT. They are all incredibly cool, and actually three of the nicest people I've ever met. Kicking Giant and Sleepyhend have a split E.P. comming out this fall on Shimmy Disc (.JAF Box 1187; NY, NY 10016). Flying Saucer has a single coming out on Teen Beat (P.O. Box 50373 W.D.C. 20091), as well as an EP on Homestead (P.O. BOx 800 Rockville center, NY 11571-0800). It Just seems Jike a really cool thing that all these girls are in bands and they're all friends, and that there is

something cool & exiting going on in New York. I really like New York.

2. International Pop Underground + 1.P.U. ae Nene “things about this convention thing ge exite me n .

n- Girl day... ‘cuz fet Ls the revolution!

b- Rich Jensen Iive at the capitol theater.

- Spoken word scene ere

d- Sleepyhead--Shadowy Men on a Shadowy Pjanet Melvins

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2 r some time now). ee etna Beas LP-- the real soundtrack to Heres ¥ aii ; kin! K 7 with such shining stars 4s Jad fnir, N.O.U., merit Withchypoo, bratmobile, Nirvana, the list goes

Can you even believe it? oF Es P.R.D.C.T.

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2 ¢ ’ ’ ? sa . Meo 3. KreKING Grant” = Me ; * K.G. was in SASSY the same month as G.G G.G. was reviewed anid they had a girl in it so Il was interested but the blab said . ; « something about love Rock, and even though the woman who wrote it Christina is my friend now, then 1 had this really bad attitude 4 Sal about :"well who is this writer anyway, what does she ,know about Love rack", it huma me out tn retrospect. Anyway, Aliison writes ta K.G., because she thinks they sound cool & I'm sctill kind of 4 ¥. bo-hum about It all. She gets thelr cassette In’ the Matl from Tae & IT like it alright. Their NWarmonies are so great, and I | Took at the cassete, and [see tt was recorded hy kramer and I'm Like 4 & mmmm... God, please understand I was feeling and acting Like a Jerk Jast spring. Production values (1 think thats what you 4 | call them really mean nothing to me.) Anyway, the K.G. are all

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x set to play this NO Nukes benefit here in d.c. w/Courtney Love, r and Jonny Cohen, and TSINAMI in june. so I'm stoked and Aljison writes them letters and Tae writes her & he comes to visit 6 I Ke like him & then Rachel comes & she's sooo cool & we hang out & I see them PLAY & my Life fs changed. C “no Ife. 4 «Then next month we (bratmobile) have a show tn NYC w/ K.C. and CHEA PET and we all bang out for two days and nights and C «its incredible fun and Just incredible. (ace more on this night in Tae & Rachel's new fanzine I don't know the name of yet, you he can write us here for more info.) ( _ Anyway, our show was really great, and Erin runs into allison during our lastsong because I think they both had their eyes - closed (1 did), and All this exiting stuff happens. And then [ get my tape of Kicking Glant's new Demo with GIRLY SOUNDS on *{1t as well as book of Love's girl power anthem "BUY", and I go > home to d.c. to listen to this tape & play a show w/ fugazi (also awesome to me); ‘and | reallze that Kicking Giant & bratmobile <« are soul bands to be together, Their new song "this sex says" jx one of my true favourites and has a line that goes: " TI can't « touch my akin... 1 means everything.... please don't touch my | skin... 1 meana everything. PLEASE don't touch MY!" : * Rachel plays standing up, is part of the NYC drummer gir) scene, 5 4 and sings a beautiful acapella song that consistently makes me tear up. < Tae pretends to be James brown by also pretending to faint and freaking the audience out. We can also balance his guitar on * his nose like a circus seal. « jome people say they sound Jike Some Velvet Sidewalk, which is pow by me as they are one of my favorite bands; but I think 5 this fact might bug some people. oh well. K.G. break form & confront iasues & are corny & sincere and in K youc face. I believe in Klcking Glant. FOREVER.

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{ke: “Oh no, she would not be into

that idea ac all." Buc then Tae made me a cassette a couple of weeks back & he put 2 G.S. songs on it ‘gigolo’ and ‘flower’; these songs are voice with electric guitar and they became my favourite songs. gigolo goes:" ...and it gives me something to laugh about, ‘cuz

my real life ain't fuckin funny

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you... forsaken ...me?" So awesome and flower my extra special favourite song goes: " every time I see your face i get all wet

between my legs. ....1 want to home and make you like ic." Thts song sounds like a round w different from each other, and heard. Totally inspirational.

fuck you like a dog I'1l take you

{th two vocal] tacks completely ic's like nothing else I've ever Infact it inspired me to start my

new band Cruella de Ville, which 1s just me as of yet but I'm

open to supegetsions. As far as

I know G.S., has only been

writing songs si nce the war, she lives in chicago now, but will

probably be moving to somewhere

else (texas?) ‘cuz she is sick

of the concrete jungle. If I could remember her name or find her address 1 would ask her to move to Olympia & be in a band with

me. But it's o.k. cnz I'L wit maybe we can trade tapes, or se eachothers Capes oh taba meet face thie even feasible. Huiybe I rhowld explain that her Vo {i what makes ber songs no great.

in my apartment & write songs & someduy nd eachother songs and record tracks on

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5. FUGAZ1 "staedy diet of nothing’ LP/ Nation of Ulysses 13 pt. program to

destroy America’ LP

leased this month or next month totally fucking rule. they are st. NW, W.D.C., 20007. $7 each more for the cd if you're into on tour right now, playing some playing at the 1.P.U. convention.

6. Sean Young ; Should have been cat woman in Batman 11. she didn't get the part, but she 1s a total fox, and one of the coolest chicka in Hollywood.

7. WYPOCROBRATS

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5 Riot Grrr) ts so much. Tt will end up befng © much I am sure. * right now it fan't anything concrete, it's not a fanzine or a group _ or anything rpecific, although it is also all of those things. As of now, it has been a mint fanzine, and there have heen some girls who : 5 met ance a week calling themselves riot prrris, talking about issues . In and outstde of punk rock that are Important to us. But 1 know, and ay 4 I'm sure some of youknow that it {fs gonna be something BIG. .. but we keep talking about what is rfot grrr} and {t's so hard to ( say ‘cuz as far arn I'm concerned all ft really is, is an {dea that 4 could go far. There's no copywrite on the name so if you are sitting Sal ther reading this and you feel Ifke you might be a riot grrril then c you probably are so cal) yourself one. ; 4 Major Influencer 1s me beiug a riot gerri are: = 4 -Olympda girl day girls -candice K ~Jenny & Kristin as 4 -augry girl zine scene

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-and all che girls E've met & bong out with this sumner 4 -and my band. ....there's more too, boys & girls who make this world easter to exist in. Kecognizing influence and Importance In my life and trying to understand how big an impact the people to my Iife make and help me to tinderatand the 5 a { world and soul force and Lave and myself. t's pood for me to see that 2 although L am completely fucked up as an individual, I can also see that « everyone else J know is probably fucked up in some way too, & that fact 4 1 dig sooo much. bal Sometimes IT get mad too chongh. See typocrobrata. - 1

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10. = Revolution (summer) riot grerl style now!

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WHEN YOU MEET A LESBIAN: HINTS TO THE HETEROSEXUAL WOMAN

Do not mun screaming from the room — this is rude.

If you must back away, do so slowly and with discretion. Do not assume she is attracted to you.

Do not assume she is not attracted to you.

Do not assume you are not altracted to her.

Do not expect her to be as excited: about meeting a heterosexual as you may be about meeting a lesbian ~ she was probably raised with them.

Do not immediately start talking about your boyfriend or husband in order to make it clear that you are straight -- she probably already knows.

Do not tell her that it is sexist to prefer women -- that people are people and she should be able to love everybody. Do not tell her that men are as oppressed by sexism as women and women should help men fight their oppression. These are common fallacies and should be treated as such.

~ Do not ask her how she got this way -- instead, ask yourself haw you got that way.

Do not expect her to refrain from talking about being a lesbian.

Do not trivialize her experience by assuming it is a bedroom issue only -- she is a lesbian twenty-four hours a day.

Do not assume that because she is a lesbian she wants to be treated like a man.

Do not assume that her heart will leap with joy if you touch her arm (condescendingly? -- Flirtatiously? -- Power-testingly?). It makes her angry.

If you are tempted to tell her she is taking the easy way out, think about that...

sadie benning secret star by tae

+ % «Last night I wanted so much to be alone and go to the Gay and Lesbian Film > au Fest going on right now. The screening I went to was so great! It was the > wm videoworks of Teen (18) Rad Lesbian filmmaker Sadie Benning. She makes these . short diary videos, just pointing her Fischer-Price camera into her eye and mouth ” and confronting the viewer with her life and they're intercut with words written on paper and shots of TV and whatever's in her environment. They all make a beautiful sense of all us thinking that we're the only ones in our world (walls) thinking thoughts and secret languages unheard in the world. "My friend was raped by a Black man now she's a racist skinhead Nazi, it's easy to get trapped when you have an excuse." I can't even describe to you what this is all about because this was something I couldn't look at like I can look at your face and say. I hope you get a chance to see her work, it's really crucial. She lives in Milwaukee and her name is Sadie Benning.

~ Wiel 2

Se ee x - * * & *

Sadie Benning secret star. Sadie Benning has been making videos since she

a was 15. She's 18 now and she still uses the same Fischer-Price pixel camera

a she started with. The camera uses an audio cassette and the images recorded look mm

broken and scattered like all your belongings were left out and you just don't * know where to begin. But you begin and give breath to your stupid dreams spoken in secret languages that you never thought anyone else dreamt but you. Most of Sadie's videos are about being young and queer with all the rules of the world keeping you inside. So even if you have to whisper to begin, you begin. But being young and queer or just being young and questioning what's 5 A : i expected of you, you know there are no rules. Sadie takes her camera and points it to her beautiful eyes and these eyes start talking and they talk shit, about herself being with a boy when she was 12-—— he was 16, they made out and then

4 ¥ oicla. 4 Sadie Benning and her videos are important to me, not just because she's girl, not just because she's queer, not just because she's a teenager, but mostly because when she decided to open up her diaries to the public, I under- 4 stood for a moment that you can't stop knowing/questioning yourself. The world will always ask Who ar: you? What are you? What are your goals? What have you 4 done? And if you answer them, you're history to chem. I'm a queer I'm a het I'm a boy and a girl and whose rules do you want to live by? Sadie's been making 4 these tapes for 3 years and on the surface it's her and her dyke identity, and if you cut out the classifications chey are tools of questioning all of the 9 potential within us, to begin even if you can only muster a whisper to start. x , + * ‘mu MM HHH Ne Oog#votodo

) he went to the bathroom and jacked off, and how she started kissing girls kissing %

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WITH SADIE

Shooting (and sometimes editing in-camera) with a cheap plastic video camera, Sadie Benning has created a series of deeply personal, ariistically deh and politically charged works documenting her evolving stale of mind. Her work, rising from the soul of her adolescence, Is a gilt to her audience. Recent videos resonate with a collective gay experience. We have all been young and, like Benning, we have had to fight for understanding In a homophobic world. Her black and white plixel-poetry speaks loudly—not from a distanced reminiscence bul from the present. The immediacy of her work combined with an evolving poktical savvy and humor will provoke, Intrigue and entertain her audience.

NEW YEAR

USA 1980

Video B/W 4mins.

Benning's first video made at age 15 ils a tostament 6 the power of the “cheap and diny.” Beyond conscious glitches, raw audio culs and an Intuitive visual grace ties @ stunning piece of tuth and art. And I's Just a hint of what's to come.

LIVING INSIDE

USA 1989

Video B/W 4 mins.

Bonning has a way of capturing a sense of place. Tis short ls her lerewell to high school

ME AND RUBYFRUIT

USA 1989

Video 4mins.

Benning captures the Intonsity and pleasure of Rita Mae Brown's Aubytuil Jungle as passionately as Brown herseil. This emotionally charged coming-out

wdeo was inspled by Brown's book: *! had’

tread Rubyhuit Angle tor the fst ime when | was 13 of 14 — [I] stared reading Rand | was tke, ‘I'm just like this character,’ and | would always think about [her]. § just stayed in my room and then | made ME AND RUBYFRUIT.°

FERS

IF EVERY GIRL HAD A DIARY

USA 1990

Video B/W Emins.

More teen guisiness and wisdom told through handscrawled paper scraps

and the voice of the videomaker: “You know I've been waiting lor thal day to come when | could walk the streets and People would look at me and say, ‘thats a dyke" and |Lthey didn't Hke It they would,” fall Into the.centar of the eanh and doal wit) thomselves. Maybe they'd retum, but

they'd respect me... JOLLIES

USA 1990

Video B/W 11 mins.

Oponing with a plrol porn scone bulwuen two Barble dolls and prog essing to a close up hiss boiwoun vie videomaher and another gil, Benning chronicies her sexual History. iniersporsed are frank re-tollings of wenage sexual experiences—all told with a hunny edge

- A PLACE CALLED LOVELY

MEW YORE PRI MIRE USA 1991 Video B&W 20 mins. Benning's mos! recent work deals with Qrowing up in a violent world. int, she

recounts cilbcuti memories of her chadhood and quesbons the soclelal standards thal silow violence to ex/sl. Her rebe@ious questioning and desire for justice make tive work one of her mos!

= —Elen Spiro

Juvenile Gangs: Aberration or Adaptation Il

HOT CHOCOLATE €iyy pay The Right Wonorable Allison; *

Thank you for your most gracioun reply. IT war quite astounded by your knowledre of my reaction to your postcard. The U.C./OreronZ/Slympia communicationn net- work iw truly of this rocket are. Tut let it be known that I was quite taken by your postcard selection (what could be more Ulyranean then kid sailora flippin’ the bird?!) and was extremely pleased to Jearn of the succenn4of the tape | sent you kidn. “irl Termn ‘2, Vunka Dead! WOT wasn the whirlwind, two-handed, never- atop attack | alwayr exorct it to te. "lun cool nicn of I.1).C. and The N.O.N. kidn (pe.- 26) and rreat articles which leave no doubt in my mind that ©.°.

le a publication wlth a prorram to be reckoned with. I‘m sorry my Intter perplexed you no. Mont of the time my correspondence consintr of made-up atorien and fibn (it's good to be enirmatic). Thin In the firnt co- herent letter J’ve written in some time. And since you wish to be a rirl In the know - I shall attempt to annwer the burning quentions enclosed in your lant letter.

ON BOXING: I box Queennbury Rulen (rerular boxing) and have never heard of Kao-Sal Galaxie, but know he han an ineredible lant name and protably {ie lorine hin brain blow by blow. [ boxed for two years at Iinley'n boxing Olub(!).C.‘s oldent boxing rym) and my coach was fir. Henry Thomas of Alexandria, VA. It 4a my fave sport in all the world and my boxing hero ia Filipino flyweight, Pancho Villa (1920's) of P’- power fame.

OW 100 IRVING 5Te The two rirls I live with are Rence Tantillo and Jennifer Pallard ("the mallard"). Ar you observed, Renee in skate-rock and Jennifer does et her halr cut at Tropea'a (barbers to The N.O.!"..), is a red-head walking in the trueAt sense,af and in one of the coolest girl rockers I know. I! pay 225 rent and have the coolest room in the heuse. The word is out. I have scouts searchi~e for a sublet. TIT will be away for the first week in July (family vacation) and would be honored if you stayed in my room In my

Skip likes boys ?

ON JOINING YOUR GANG OF DRAPES FOR REVOLUTIONs My services are rendered freely and voluntarily as a love- offering to my beloved compatriots. For that matter, 1 need not be compensated nor pensioned. ON GAMBOAS: I am of Xetitn Keith Camboa and Teresita Amos. tiy Grandfathers were Melquiades Gamboa and Felipe Amos. My Grandmothers were Tina -lensen and Pilar AcuMa. 1 have two nisters named Jennifer and Kathleen who are both younrer than me. fy Creat Creat Aunt wasn a hero during the War for Independence from the Spaniards. Patrocinio Gamboa outemarted the shrewd Spanish Cazadores of Jlojlo in her voluntary mission of taking safely the Philippine flag to Santa Jarbara in time for the inauguration of the revolutionary government of the Visayas in 1f98. She served as an indefativable rebel, intelligence wortler and wae in- strumenfal in getting the Iloilo Chinede to support the Common cause and was a campaigner for food, medicine, arms and ammunition for the revolutionists. During the revolution against the Spaniards and later the Americans,Uamboa led the women volunteers to the battle

fields where they undertook Red Cross work, nursed the wounded and comforted the sick. “he remained single until her death on Nov. 24, 195}.

We begin our American Campairm I8k 1991 in a few weekn no please alert the kids. l'lease communicate express of tender feelings to our future battery mates - Bikini KillandFuel up.»for soon we arrive, notorious.

,

love/rock/revolution yours truly,

TR OM = 6k UR Sa ON oe

Steve Gamboa xo Ko

2 PURELY

| Chapter V

THE HOUR OF TEMPTATION

CIRCUS LUPUS

Circus Lupus are one of my very favourite bands right now. At our last show at d.c. space allison satd: “oh, by the way bratmobile - hearts the Circus Lupus". I looked over to Chris Thomson and he

looked Jike he was BLUSHINGH! hopefully anyway. Awe ea

Circus Lupus are: Chris Wamley- guitar Seth Lorinezi- bass 3906 Benton NW

Chris Thamsan- vacals Washington, D.C. 20007

Arika Casebolt- Drums %

They used to ive in Madison Wisconsin and they Just moved to d.c. thin summer. This hand is completely incredible, and I can't really figure-out why, but one reason is that everything about them, as individuals is completely different, and everything sounds completely different 1f you try to listen to the individual {nstruments, but sounds totally great topether. Allison and TI did a 2 hour interview with them at food far thought, but it was so long I Just couldn't begin to transcribe the whole thing to get it done on time. The interview was really great though, and 1 promise ic will be in the wext Issuc. (this ts pood because [et guarantees that there will be

another issue.) xxx

Anyway, word has it that they will be releasing an Ip on a very nice label based in d.c. hopefully around december or January. They also might be pgolng an tour sometime this fall. you might want to write them and ask them to play in your town. XXX 7 Circus Lupus also released a single 1 believe last spring or so, on 3 the Cubist Label, which is thot punk rock scientist scene in pittsburg. I dont have that address so please write to the band to find out if there are any left or how to pressure a second pressing.

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NOT EVEN ZINE- 8709 Fenway dr., HKethenda, Mb 20817

Dalsy ta a coal atratphe edge clot gerrt whe hag done tea of these 7ines so far, and the third one fa almost dene. tt'« gonna he mainly about Issnen of celigton ta punk. Born Apatast, Sheleer, etc...

Writ her she's rad.

QUIT WHINING- PLO. Bax 2154, Mt. Holyoke, S. Madley. HA 01075 Margaret” Ta Daisy's aisterand she $s working on hee first tasue of this fanzine. MAyhe write her fur info fiest. She's cool man. A rint grrr).

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if you're a regular glet_ germs reader, or thto the jieaaw arene thea you will know that thin tn the Piterature Ghat goes stoug with the Bikdnd KITT band. Kathleen In busy at this very moment working on the second tanue, nod I've been cheating hy taking a few peeks here and there; and ft Jooks fucking rad. There (an alay

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VENHLES 2000- PLO, WO 2279, Olympla, WA 9BSN7 = Thia ts my Friend al ? Stelin'a thing that cight now fs making thousands of t-rhirts. Send some ntompa for their catalog.

Tothink they are called ‘love rock t-eea'. “Kitten v/ a vbip”

is my fave.

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Su yeah, thie In Dow and Frin of TEENAGE GANG DEBS's, new fanzine.

Amd by the way this ts a real fanzine along the Tinea of TICER BEAT & SIXTEEN. Theres futecviews, exposes, and fabulous pin ups too. Ever arince: TGp has Caken of f hy betug blabhed about fn SASSY, the VULLACE VUICE,

deewta CLTY_ PAPER, UE WASHINGTON pushy and ugh... spin, old Frin “and Don haven't heew the same. ...but they! re trying to do some penance by making

a punk fanztoe, {there also might he nomething Like a 1S page Beat Happenings Interview, and node photo's of Mark BL Robfowon as King Of), buc ft dtdut

tell yours.)

1.1 FR AND BRAT Ue GI] igh ave, Kreamcrton, WA 98310 {ntertw toned

-.. this ds Skippy’s fanzine and It's ahout revalution, and punk and

veganism, and straight edge and lots of other stuff. The first tssue

had an article written by my girl{riend Julie, and an interview with Jan Mackye. 1 think No. 2 has a jJawbos Interview. cool.

BRING Ut BACK- P.Q. Box 20224, Seattle, WA 98102

1 haven't actunlly seen thin fanzine but tt Im done by @ guy vamed Ron, and the next anne han the theme of ‘mot Just boya fun’. sounds good to me.

JANE AND FRANKIFE- ©.0. Hox 55, Postal STN. E, Toronto, ONTARIO, CANADA ee MO GED (send extra ‘cuz it's trom caneda) 3?

this in done by the brother aud sinter ceae cf Jena and Klaus You Brucker. ft {a ¢Cotally (ucking grent, with high queer scene Influence. It im really heautiful too. Go. Jones aud Sth Coluan are discussed lots. Usme... just get it o.k.7 UF dove chis. (21 people who chould be queer {a che best!)

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Laera’s fanzine that has two iasuen that U know of although, I am aure

beth are owt of print. Try her anywny. THe next fanue is going to be

steost entirely on Patel Smith J understand, which nhould he good an a primer for thokof un who have fallen behind on our punk rock hiatery, (herstory?). When } read S.N. U1 1 wan so happy. Laura used to live in Eugene and rhe cells great atorled and it looks coo] tao. This is e queer girl zine as

well as a girl zine. try and get it dude. ‘

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A hoy named Larry-tob meskes thin fanzine ond tt in a con) zine cuz it is real Suclusive on tasues of gender, has lots of contributers, an well as lots of writers (and | assume readers) In prisons. He tn also real nice.

We are kind of pen pals.

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JLGSAW- Wf fo prayed f would pray that f wit! nee a copy of Jigsaw in my hands

cuz 4 dont know where they go. FF you want to, write Tobt and ask

her about $10. Same day they will be avallahble. Rack issues and all, i have nome weird faith or something. f' Ul try and be patlent. you too, fust don't forget that ft docs extat, and people seul) contribute. fe's actually

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SIMPLE MACHINES- 3510 N, Ath st., Arlington, VA 22201 In cane you misred July SASSY, there was a Itetle bit of tnfoemation dn haw ta pet a hookict that Jeany And Kristin put out on how to xtart and malntain record companies. Simple Machinen, thelr record company ts forging onward at full speed with the recent release of Screw vith Jawhox Veloctty Girl, GEEK, and Candymachine. tte's really preat ‘ They also have released the Cirst TSUNAME single with 5 ; Songs on it. A total bargain at $3 dollars I'm sure. Gee thetr catalog & Uf you want the booklet send (wo extra xtampa or .50¢.

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Then he threw a pipe at her pretty face and babbled,ranted about hls right to smoke in the non-smoking section as long as there were people in the smoking section whe weren't smoking.He babbled and brown y drool formed on his lips.He tore the fake plants from the fake dirt - from the planters that seperated the two sections.

A truck driver pulled him up by the shirt,asked him who the fuck did he think he was hurting = woman ain't no real man that'll hurt @ woman.

The frustrated waitress cried,rushing to the restroom.The tired elderly manager along with the truck driver threw the ranting man out and he shook his fists for 1» he,too,was frustrated and he too was in love with the waltress.I paid for my root beer float and left into ' the night.I picked up the pipe from the floor before J stepped out,

stuffed it down in my purse-It smelled of vanilla and warmth.

{ walked home to my room of similar fragrances,passing bus stops, litter,

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FADE OUT

Natasia J. Chan, a 21 year old American woman of Chinese descent currently resides in Portland, Oregon. She is a. working on her screenwriting portfolio b. planning super-8 documentaries in her head about Chinese-American culture c. on sabbatical d. oan unemployed University of Oregon graduate. ‘

While living in Northwest middle-class limbo this summer, Natasia is striving to learn how to be a perfect radical, a need brought on by frustrations with “pseudo-hipples” she met in Eugene and with the growing awareness of hate crimes in the state of Oregon through racist incidents caused by skinheads and the cestumed racist (ie. those in suits, blouses, jeans, dresses, etc).

Through her work, Natasia plans to discuss these issues while st$ll trying to have fun. Alas, someday....

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Allison and Molly met in the fall of 1989 in the dorms of the university

of oregon. They were next door neighboure. Allisom first sav solly when

she heard someone screaming from the ball phone: “burt,... 1 love you!”.

Holly wae trying to save her heart long distabce style, but Allison was nonetheless understandably startled and somewhat frightened by is diepley.

3 months later agreeing that the doras vere a lsme sad unhealthy eceme, they decide to pove in together after the chriatess break. The aight before Molly went home for chrismas vacation, they both made the haag im the bathroom, hiding out from their respective roomates, dubbing tapes to take home. Soeshow, in che process, they decide to be a band called bratmobile. Derails om thie decisios ace pretty hazy, sithough the bratmebile theme song written thet very evening remains in Allison's lyric book, too ridiculous to ever performs, record, of even practice.

...00 around epring quarter after @ couple of wowen's etudies classes, Coase of leee punk shows in eugene, some cool pumk shoves in olyepia, sed cee very escen- tial copy of Jigeav No. 2, theee girle start to get thet feeling in theie beart; that somethings:%aot quite cightGghe saount of girls they see iavelved fa puat and the world in general, and talk begina fa sowe circles sbowt oterting a radio atacion on campue. Allison and Molly veat their own show, ond bad. They sabe

a demo tape, it goes: “girl rock...im your face!™, it hee 1), Cowrtmey Love,

Salt -ne- Pepa, and Patey Cline. They decide to call che show Cirl Ceres, after the song Allison wrote in the fall. It cowld’ve been the sont.

»+.Bue pot sacke and lsecea dose aot a redie show make, even Chowgh Molly epear most of the suamer making flyere end etationsry, ss veil se bwying tons of records with girls on ‘ea to play. Bet the dorke in charge voet bear of getting their asses in gear, so the girls begin to look for alternatives, ether etetione, ohter formate. They both try to leara guiter, to write, to survive. Everything ie hard you know. f

+--Around october Tobi (cool friend and Jigsaw editor), eske molly : "why é0m't you do @ fanzine?” Hasea.. -+ Molly eaye to Allison:"hey, thie radio scene fe nowhereeville. Maybe we should do a fanzine." Allison saya:"0.K%." Molly saysi"we can call it girl germs, like the song you know? Like the redie show in prince.”

Alliaon saye:"0.K. cool, here's some atuff 1 wrote.”

The ceet de history baby. :

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to start a fanzine:

technical info for girta whe want (i'm not sure if this is even esfential)

ajiave something to write pbout. mylay it aut ina format you Tike. c)print tt up-

g>pet people to read (It.

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Olympia, WA

MARS Cit 2 o,2 30 eeaetnan a oe & e Ne-akA As feels WITH NO RETURNS TO: Tabatha, Kathleen, Kim, Melissa Kristin, tot le, Julie, tnisy, Margaret, honna, Tiffany, Jenny, " Mark Ey ° , » Mark, Juliana, Fugazi, Erin, chi , Nebacea; mae? Nachel, Torry, Jonny Cohen, N.O.U., Slim sen wae iat-Nea, a SEA ages Pe trp K., 0G, Sharon, Recky, Jen S. anne riot rreritd.c. style eu l.o-lo, Hope, and revolution (sumer)

Plus also tons ‘o love to Dana (g.g- Fiction editor), Jane, Karen,

Erika, Laura, + tasha.

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